Something...

Well, I was due to write something new. What can I say? God has been my strength and HE is just unbelievable. So my life has been good, well, what pertains to me it has. Unexpected suprises, unexpected people have come back to my life, right at the perfect time. Its brought wonder and a glow back to my life. So anywho, I'll write more on that in the future.

For now, I guess I can say I'm doing well. Yes, still emo at times, but regardless knowing that God is in control.

Anywho....I have to write really fast, that I seriously enjoy the excitement that I get of trying to make it to all of "The Life" shows. hehe. Eversince I've been back from school, that's pretty much been my lil' escape. Thanks to those guys, cause without them even knowing it, they've filled this part of me that eversince I came back from school it was missing "something".

Anywho...ok....so I wrote...no so much "emo" this time, :P

OH yeah, had I mentioned that my dearest friend thelma gave me a betta for my bday? Well she did, and now Johnny, that's his name, is also another part of my life. hehe....I wanted a dog, but Johnny for now is good enough. He's great! I had never had a fish, thought they would eventually die...but supposebly betta's last up to 2-3 years. So keep your fingers crossed!!!! so far so good...its been a month that I've had him.

He's great. Has his own lil' attitude. Anywho, that's a totally different subject. Well, I just wanted to write something short, now this is just becoming to long....so you guys, many blessings to whoever is actually reading this...and well, reading this far. God bless, keep strong!

without you...i am nothing

"I miss where I’ve been
And I don’t like where I am"

I read this right now and all i know that right about now its starting to be my song. For the past couple weeks I've been trying to brush off what's been happening around me. But you can only try to deny who you are for so long before you are reminded that you were created for more.

I put on some music the other night to just fall asleep....and usually I would put some slow, accoustic sounds, but this night I felt like listening to spontaneous worship. So who do I put...I put #5 from Venga Tu Reino...that's the track that Ivonne starts singing and then its just an explosion from there on.

I was laying in bed and my spirit just started moving. And tears began pouring out. What I realized while laying there...I realized that I miss it. My spirit misses worship. My spirit, my soul, everything that is within me misses the passion that has lead to who I am.

So, I thought I was strong, I thought I could take this time "off". And to put all this in comparison.... the reality is that I've been on that fire, and you can't make me settle for just the blowing of smoke. I know where I've been. OHHHH and its been amazing, and now I realize that I don't like where I am. How can people live like this? I don't know how.

I haven't spoken to many about this, why not? I didn't want to be judged or to be felt sorry for. But most of all, I didn't want anybody judging something or a situation that they haven't been a part of. Its really easy to judge.

So, to the One that sustains me....I love you Father. And I repeat it to you today, "Without you, I am NOTHING".