not time

it seems like everytime i remember to write in here "something" is happening. So what's on the agenda? my grandma. My grandma who has been there for me for the past 27 years. The one that has loved me unconditionally, the one that I treasure and admire has been ill. She was taken to the emergency room 6 days ago, she had surgery, her pressure was high, so they couldn't release her. I spent the night with her in the hospital on her final night there and she was great.

The following day I visited her after work, and again, she was great. But then at night she became sick again and again, we headed out to the emergency room. there she wanted to say her goodbyes, but c'mon, its not her time so i reminded her of that. She said that my grandpa and uncle were waiting for her. But i told her that that could not be, because they both know that we need her here.

where i'm tring to get at is that I can't loose her. I can't. Not now, and not any time soon. I love that lady. I love her. She's been my shelter and comfort.

I don't want to loose her Lord. Please give her the strength. its not her time, it can't be.