WHAT???? SERIOUSLY!

OK. I'll try to sum this up, because its HUGE! You know how I said that this whole Academia thing was sort-a over, and I was content about it? And how there was no possible way I would win this online voting thins. Well well well. Let me tell you! I went to Monday night with 167 votes. Then yesterday morning I find out that Andres (Posipopo) who went to Christ for the Nations with me sent out a bulletin with the link to my profile to all the contacts on his website called Devocion Total, its a website for independent christian artist. From that point forward, I accumulated over 10,000 votes by 3 pm!!! These votes came from believers all over latin america and abroad. My page has never displayed the comments, but there are thousands of comments (all from one day) of people just blessing me, blessing my ministry and blessing this path I'm taking, and telling me that they think this is a great way to spread the gospel. They are encouraging me and telling me that I will be light in the darkness. That I will represent the light in that place.

By 4 o'clock though, the people of the website removed my votes and left me with a little over 200 votes. I emailed them explaining how it is that those votes came about. That I too was shocked and very touched. They replied letting me know that they just needed to verify that each vote met their requirements. Fine. Well today is a new day and there are over 9,000 votes in again. The majority of the comments are all encouraging me, but there are a few from some believers that are telling me that I'm wrong, that light doesn't mix with darkness, that I'm seeking my own will and not God's, that how can I call myself a christian and be willing to sing songs that are not dedicated to God...etc.

I can honestly tell you that even though this is very touching and overwhelming, I am sitting here now being scared. I started this a week ago with the "why not?" attitude, I wanted the experience and be able to say I did it. I was content and that was going to be that. But now, this has taken a new route. I have a very very very good chance of winning the online voting. The competition in Mexico City would be very difficult.

I want to give this to the Lord. His plans are not our own. And if I was only doing this for the experience, well now its becoming something more than that. I'm just scared and I need all of your prayers. I'm scared that I will not be the typical christian people are expecting to see. I'm scared of being judged, ridiculed, and most of all to mess up (b/c I'm not the perfect christian) and be criticized.

I'm trying to figure what good would come of this. I didn't think that far ahead, I did in a personal level, but not in the level of "I'm representing the christian community". I know I'm probably over thinking this. Thank you Devocion Total!!