Plain and Simple

I miss you. That's it. That's all. Plain and simple. No run arounds. I miss you.

What happened? oh my gosh, what happened? What's wrong with me? And I mean that in the sense that I don't know why I'm not reaching out to you? Why instead of being here without you, why don't I pick up the phone and call you? Why don't I tell you that I miss you? Why can't I do that?

Is it the fear of looking weak? of looking desperate? I'm not! I'm not dammit! All I know is I miss you. And I think of you every day, in everything I do you're there.

I was scared. I admit that. I was scared of you. Scared of not knowing where we could end up. Because I do care for you so much that I was scared to ruin it. I was scared of loosing you the way I've lost all those that I've loved in the past. But look at me now, I've lost you regardless.

What am I going to do? How long will I continue this to go on? I play the tough card pretty well, but that has only lead me to where I am now. Alone.

Will you be there at the end? Or was our end written a long time ago?