Beginning of a new season

This past week i was in Mexico for Mexico Outreach. It was an amazing time. I wish I could write every single thing that happened and every single word that was said to me, but that would be A LOT. So, let me try to summarize a bit of what happened to me while there.

This year I went to the trip knowing that I needed God to give me something. As I have written in many past blogs here, I have been restless and knowing that I needed more. As we drove down to Mexico, I thought of how I was a year ago during this same trip. And the Johanna that I saw was not the Johanna that I have become. I realized that I missed who I used to be. I thought of the people that met me a year ago and wondered if they were expecting that Johanna, of course they were! So I started wondering and asking God, "what am I going to give this year?".....

My first night there during our "intents" time God broke me. After letting everything out and admitting the condition of my heart, the Lord moved in that tent. He told us to "come" that "he's been waiting".

From there the week was just confirmation after confirmation. God placed key people during those days that spoke to me and ministered to me. While they asked, "what is it that you are awaiting God to give you this week?" I simply said, "I have no idea, but I know it'll be amazing"....God had his plan. By Wednesday night He answered my prayer and showed me what he wanted. As he showed me the only thing left was to "enter in" to where he wanted me to be.

The season I had been living, which was not one that I wish to relive anytime soon, came to an end, and a new season was being formed and poured into my heart.

I would share with you what that is, but hopefully you'll see/hear me different from here on out. Basically it is time to live, it is time to feel alive. And the only way is to do His will, to please Him. People around might not understand, they might tell me that I am wrong, but it is time to step into what God has created for me.

This whole year I feel that I have compromised who I am and who I wanted to be to please those around me, but that led me nowhere.

And so this new season begins. A season that will be hard but I will be alive!

Keep me in prayer...seriously! and I'll write some more later on to fill you in in what I'll be doing now! uhhhh, exciting!