really? is this really happening again?

ever feel like you continue to live the same experience over and over again? well, today it sure felt like that. What am i talking about, I'm talking about me and relationships. The first person i fell in love with, well to make a LONG story short, we took a "friendship/break" period and he met someone and got engaged. Later on he ended up getting engaged to someone else, but the point is, he got married. OK, that happens no? well...then, after I think I've surpassed that and I'm all healed and all I meet someone else, I honestly thought he was really the one. LONGER story short, I encouraged him to go to do a training out of the country (ministry wise) and well, what did he have to tell me when he got back?...well, he met someone in that trip and eventually what happened?....they are now married. And well, then a friend came back into my life. We were just that and after a while, what do you know? something began to stir in me, and I thought that in him as well. Wait, I didn't "think", there was something happening in both of us. This is somone I didn't think of as a partner, he was just a great friend, But then I started being able to see a future with him. I could see us helping and encouraging one another to serve and have those dreams that God had placed in our hearts come to pass. Well, another LONG story short. This morning he calls to let me know he just got engaged this past weekend.

Now, really, really.....WHAT THE CRAP!

So now, what? should I just deal with it and move on, or should I let him know the truth. That something changed along the way and I know I made him think that I didn't see him in that way, but I do, and I have. I don't want to have any more "what if's" in my life. He mentioned the wedding, what if i did go, would I be able to just sit there and wonder what would have been if I had told him the truth? Is this really the person I want to be with for the rest of my life? or am i to let it go and wait for the next one? AHHH. ok. there's obviously way more to this, but for now this is all I can write. I just can't believe that once again this is the story of my life. what's that? I prepare them for marriage. true story.