I'm a dork, I know it

I'm wondering if I'm the one that does this. you should have seen me today...well inside of me, this whole past week was an emotional roller coaster, does he like me does he not like me, he does like me. And all along I've rejected the idea, all along I've told myself that i could not go down that road. But this week, I think because he confirmed that something was wrong, that he intentionally had been doing this, I think that's what clicked something in me.

Do I like him? I don't know. And I think my I don't know is a yes I'm starting to. oh this is bad. I'm not supposed to like him. Or like many times, do I like the idea of having someone right now? Its been almost a year, wow, since the whole idiot incident. Funny how i don't mention names in here. haha. and seriously, seriously I had not seen this guy under this light. he was a friend, yes, but I didn't see him as anything more.

I'm acting like a girl. I do this all the time I think that's why I don't like this idea. I'm thinking too much about him. I'm such a dork. I want to be around him, I want to talk to him, I want to laugh with him....ahhhh again, dork. Now the question is, what will I do? Let everything take its course. Just sit back and wait, or let him know that I'm actually, wow I'm actually considering this. He has no clue. No clue whatsoever.

Oh my gosh, I'm a dork. Am I really really thinking about this? buahhhh! I'll get back and let you know what course this took.