tio...

I wish I could tell you that everything has been great and that nothing has happened. But reality is further from the truth. My uncle, who i wrote about couple blogs prior, passed away this past weekend. I've been saying that I know the "christian/believer" things to say is that it was God's timing, and it was God's will. But honestly, i don't feel this. I feel that this was not the time for him to go!

My uncle's death brings a lot of emotions and changes to the family as a whole. He was always the father figure to my aunts and uncle. Growing up he was the one that was able to study, to finish school and get a degree. He was successful in both family and career.

He encouraged all the family not to live a mediocre lifestyle, to succeed, to be our best, to do whatever it was in our power and reach to be better people, better humaan beings.

During his memorial service and funeral, i was able to see through others that my uncle was all these things mentioned above and more. Important politicians came to the memorial service, professors, business men, his close friends, people he helped, people that worked for him during campaigns, people he touched. The room both in front, back, side, and hall where filled with flowers. OH, we even found out that he made the front page of the newspaper. That reminded me that your life speaks even without you speaking.


I will miss my uncle tremendously. He left behind a legacy, and I want to carry it out. I want to be a woman known for my character and my servanthood. I want to help without expecting anything in return, I want to think of others before myself. I'm saying all this, and I think of him.

By no means was he a saint! but he was a good man. He left behind a wife and two daughters. Who I know will miss him terribly. I hope I can be there for them and my uncle was there for his family.

I know it'll take a while to get used to the fact that he is no longer here. In the meantime, i want to remember him. I want to remember the words he would tell me. I don't understand why this happened. Because I truly felt that we would see a miracle and God would be glorified through it and salvation would come to my aunt and cousins.

But now, I know it'll still happen, but in a different way, through different circumstances, through different situations and people. If I am to be used Lord, use me, prepare me.

I need to trust. I need to remember that he is with the Lord. That he didn't suffer long. Just as when my grandfather passed away, there was no doubt in my heart and spirit that he was with the Lord, that he was right under God's eyes. And that goes for my uncle as well. There is no doubt.

You'll be missed tio. Thank you for all that you did and said. You impacted my mom and aunts and you strengthened my grandma....You left a piece in you in all of us. I can't believe your gone, I can't believe you won't be here anymore. The first one to show up, and ready to eat or watch a movie. Sitting in the couch with your two girls right next to you. Or showing up with your new toy, or talking hours about life. You've inspired me tio, you truly have. I'm proud to be like you tio. I hate goodbyes so I'll leave you with a see you soon. For I know that one day we'll all reunite in heaven in the presence of God. I love you tio, stay with us in our hearts.