still the one.

This night is a night of memories, of what ifs. If you could be with the love of your life, would you? After almost 10 years, would you take that person into your life? I was watching this "telenovela"....I know I know. Anywho, and this couple was reunited after 10 years. One thought the other one had died, and tried reliving her life but never felt that love again. Everyday she yearned to see him again, to be with him again.

At the end of it, they asked normal people walking the streets if they would go back with their love of their life after 10 years. All said yes. And it got me thinking, would I?

And as those people answered, I felt myself answering along with them....as everyone men and women answered "yes". Yes, i would. These people were of all ages, married, so the excuse of me still being single has nothing to do with it. I would.

could it be the feeling or the thought of the unknown. We already know what our lives are like without them, well what would they be like with them in it. If our decisions would have been to stay by their side.

Its also knowing that you've made so many wrong decisions along the way, that now you look back and wish you could undo some of those decisions. Why? because bigger ones have come and you are able to see that staying with that person was not as dramatic as you made it out to be. That you've had to face tougher decisions, you've had to live life....and being with that person was not a bad thing as people made it out to be.

I'm sorry. I wasn't ready maybe you see, to understand that somethings just can't be undone. I always thought I'd have another chance, but that one just didn't come. Or maybe it did, but I was too caught up to notice.

I guess with all of this, I just wanted it out there that I'd take you back in a heart beat. I would want all those dreams we talked about, to come to pass with each other. Hey....thank you. Because you set the bar up high for the rest who have come my way.

what's my reason for this blog. none whatsoever. just letting some things out there. And please, if anyone else other than this person ever reads this....its not you. This is to the person that changed my life and heart since '96. still the one.